Another late Blog entry

It's been a while since I last posted here,
As usual I have been really busy with my new life here in Easingwold.
Haha my new life?
In a sense it really is a new life,
I've left everything behind in Milton Keynes that has anything to do with me - friends, home, work, belongings, etc.
I have come to this small town with a new beginning, a new life, a new Jason.
or maybe not a new Jason,
but the real me that I have kept hidden from the world for the past 30 years.
I have emerged from my shell,
my self imprisonment with a new sense of belonging,
a new and improved out look on life.
but I could not do all of this on my own,
I had help from a very special lady, my wife, my Candy.
My princess brings me so much happiness and love to my once barren heart that I can never hope to repay her back.
she is my true angel, my sweetheart.


Well before everyone starts being sick with all the mushy stuff,
on to with the rest of my blog entry -

Met up with Melanie and Liam a few weeks ago in Leeds,
It was an interesting and good day, the Corn Exchange in Leeds was wicked,
but not too keen on the rest of the shopping centre,
need to explore more me thinks.
Mel and Liam took to Candy very well,
it was really good to see those two again after a long while being apart.

Candy made me such a beautiful present the other week,
she bought me some role playing stuff from Travelling man in Leeds
and she bought me my own set of spanky new dice for Dungeons and Dragons.
But I had no dice bag to go with it,
so Candy made me one out dark red suede, which is utter beautiful.

Both of us have been applying for loads of jobs recently,
signed on with two agencies so far.
we could have had some work, but the local bus service is not that good.

The weather here has been really warm and sunny recently,
Candy and I have been taking alot of country strolls and sunbathing.
heck one day, Candy got me to wear outdoors a blue tracksuit pants,
trainers, and beige t-shirt whilst playing badminton at the park !!!
Me.....The Dark Lord of the Underworld....Who wears black all the time...what's next?
she already has me going to the gym,
Bloody hell....
What would all the other Big Bads think of me at the Annual Villain Picnic?

Omg....Candy has totally fallen in love with the Beholder,
a creature from the Dungeons and Dragons game.
It's a sphere fat like creature with one big central eye,
mutiple eyes on storks and a huge teeth filled mouth.
The creature is pure evil and nasty,
and Candy wants one as a pet for her D&D character.
she even wants to call it "Blinky".
sheesh she has no idea,
but it should be fun to role play.
Gawd I love her!.

This weekend in Milton Keynes is the Collectormania fair,
a huge 4 day event full of superstars from sci-fi and fantasy tv and movies, plus loads of stalls selling all kinds of merchandise.
I was going to go originally,
but Candy and I could not get a place to stay.
We were going to stay at Debbie's at first,
but it turns out that she has sold her house
and gone back to live with her husband.
which was a bit of a pain in the arse,
as it was also Debbie's birthday on the 1st of May and mine on the 3rd.
we were going to have a huge weekend party,
but alas it did not turn out as I had planned.
so.....Candy is whisking me away over yonder to Whitby,
and we are going to stay in a caravan for a few days to celebrate my 30th Birthday.
In fact I am really looking forward to this mini break, should be interesting.

So I will be offline for a couple of days enjoying my Birthday,
I might come back with a surprise or two for this website !

Who New?

Well Chris Eccelston has quit his role as the Timelord after only one season, the stupid fool!
does not want to be typecast my ass!
He was really good as the Doctor and now, after all the money the BBC has spent on him and the show, he is bailing ship or should that be the Tardis.

We now have a brand new Doctor the 10th in fact to play the role, starting next year, his name is David Tennent.
read the article here -
http://channels.aolsvc.co.uk/news/article.adp?id=20050416024509990001

Hopefully he will last longer than one season.

Quizes

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You use a Greatsword. Do the words Zweihander or Flamberge mean anything to you? You prefer a Greatsword, a massive, heavy blade frequently strong enough to cut down the rides of mounted warriors. Though slow, the impressive length and heft of a greatsword makes it capable even of breaking through armor. Your enemies will run from the deadly arcs of your blade as you bear down on them.

Your Eternal One

It's Me

Not a bad looking chap If I do say so myself.

He's Back and It's About Time !

Well I've just watched the first brand new epsiode of Dr.Who after 16 years, and I have got to say it was well worth it!.
Chris Eccleston was not that bad as the Doctor and his humour was well timed, He acted like a 900 year old Timelord with his sense of alienness to the plight of certain humans in the story.
Billie Piper was really good as his sidekick Rose, Thank god she has given up on the singing as her acting is alot better.
reminds me off the 7th Doctor's sidekick Ace, very tough and strongwilled.

The theme tune was updated to a very good standard and the special effects were almost movie like.

I had something in my eye when I gazed upon the Tardis, an old friend has finally come home.

Looking forward to the rest of this series, and may it continue.

Well done Russell T Davis and BBC ONE.

Comments from the Past

This is a reply to the comments I received from an ex-colleague of mine in the Ghost Hunting group.
who I might add, had no problem with or (so called) bitched about behind their back.

The comment about there are no more bitching or backstabbing in the group, hmmm interesting that you say I was responsible for most of it, considering that it was your daughter, the "fearless" leader of the group did most of the bitching about members of the group and ex members of the group.
the way she used to bitch and lose her temper at Martin at every investigation was very unprofessional, if they have marriage problems (which I think they do) then they should sort it out at home and not take it with them on the hunts.
And as for the team working great together now that I have gone, maybe it has something to do with the fact that no one would ever question or stand up to Sarah's orders. Talk about a bunch of sheep!
there was only one other member of that group who had enough balls to question things and who I respected and that was Jess.

And as for me slagging off and backstabbing every member of the group,
What the fuck are you on ?
As I recall, I moaned about Sarah to you and Martin to do with her behavior.
I have never slagged off Martin, All I have ever said to him was to grow a pair and stand up to Sarah.
Jess I have never slagged off, I was the one who told you lot at the party to trust her, as you thought she would betray you all like Jackie did.
Alison I can't believe you think I would stab you in the back, the only time I have ever been pissed off with you is with that comment you have left on this blog.
and as for James, yes I admit I have slagged him off and backstabbed him, That's because I don't like him, he is a complete fucking twat who thinks he knows alot more then he does, and who has the amazing ability at giving cold readings.
Don't forget I know him a hell of alot better then any of you will ever do.

I have never forgotten what Martin and Sarah has done for me, yes they did help me when I was at my lowest point in my life, and I did thank them many times for that.
but for them not to wish me luck, being happy for me, and not making any kind of effort at getting to know my Girlfriend was way out of order.

The amount of times that I have had to listen to both Martin and Sarah bitching to me about each other got on my nerves quite a bit.
The times when Martin used to ring me up and moan about Sarah, what she did, who she is flirting with this time, the lack of any love in the relationship, etc.
and then having to deal with the same things with Sarah, but on more of a personal note, having her throw her self at any bloke, her flirting away with me and posting on her journal that something might happen between us, and then have Martin ring me up in the middle of the night or meeting up with me asking stupid questions about if I fancy his wife, really started to piss me off.
so yeh I got a lot of bullshit from this group, but I put up with it until now.

I do not need to grow up, I'm quite mature and very much an adult, if you are thinking that I am not due to this post, tough shit!
this is my fricking journal, I can write whatever I like.

I know how to treat people in a decent manner,
Just ask any of my true friends.

Quiz

Take the quiz at dicepool.com

No use trying to fight it, you're an eight-sided die, a d8.
A fine example of simple elegance, the d8 is one of the least appreciated types of dice, and is often neglected.
You are known to be quiet and shy, outward traits that conceal viscous sarcasm and mean wit. You are very smart, yet wise enough to hide your intelligence the quicker they found out how smart you are, the sooner they'll put you to work, which is something you can do without. People call you dark and pessimistic, or moody and cynical.
You find little point in arguing.

Dude, Where's the Blog Entry?

It has been quite a while since I last posted on my blog,
only because I have been really busy with sorting
out my new life here in Easingwold with Candy.

I don’t know if I will be posting much on a regular basis as before,
maybe a few posts a month, I don’t know yet.

Anywhoo…what have I been up to since January?

I was in Milton Keynes on and off for about 4 weeks sorting out my flat,
packing everything up, putting stuff in storage,
saying goodbye to my friends, organizing my finances, etc.

I never knew how much stuff there is to do when you move property.
There are still a few people I have not said goodbye yet
and they don’t know that I have left town.
Hopefully if they read this, they will find out.

Most of my stuff is now stored safely at Big Yellow Storage,
which I will pick up in a couple of months time,
once Candy and I have a van to drive down to MK again.

Walking out of the flat for the final time was a bit emotional,

ok

I had a lot of bad times there, with the flooding, gangs fighting outside,
and the general lack of maintenance support from the council,
but it was still somewhere where I called home for a while.

Damn I think I will even miss the jebus loving drunk downstairs!

Saying goodbye to most of my friends was kinda bad,
a manly cry moment I do believe with lots of Group Hugs! Hahaha
Gonna miss Carl, Debbie, and Andy the most,
I know I will still see them maybe once a month or so,
but still, you know!

But I do not regret my decision in moving up here to live with my Candy,
come on, I love this lady with all my heart and soul,
I have never met such a perfect, funny, sexy, loving lady before,
she even out geeks me on sci-fi! So yeh she is so bloody perfect for me.
I am so going to make her the most beautiful,
best bride ever in the world this year when we get married.

Oh My Gawd, it snowed really heavily the other week
when we were back home for a short while,
that Candy and I got up really early one morning
and went out back to the park to have a snowball fight!
It was excellent, we even made snow angels on the ground,
which was the first time for me,
also for the very first time I built with Candy’s help a snow man…
well it became more of a demonic snow goblin, but it was still cool.
It had horns, fangs, and a pentagram symbol on its chest.
Yeh I know, it’s not your typical piece of snow art,
but hey, look at me; I’m not your typical human either!

While we were down in Milton Keynes,
Candy and I attended a wedding fair in the local shopping center,
wow, so many ideas to think about and the wedding dresses and suits were wonderful,
I tell you, Candy is going to look so beautiful on the day!

We still have lots to sort out for the big day,
and as for the Las Vegas trip, we might wait until the end of the month for that,
depends on how much we can afford really.

So an Earth/Pagan ceremony in August,
and then the proper Bo wedding in Vegas later.

Hmmm…. two wedding anniversaries to remember, hope I never forget! Hahaha

It’s going to be a small event with close friends and some family invited,
instead of a big celebration.
We have already sorted out the best man, chief bridesmaid,
giver of bride, chief usher, and bridesmaids.
So we are nearly there. ;)

Finally bought the ultimate DVD the other week –
Farscape: Peacekeeper Wars.
It was Amazing with a capital “A”,
it resolved all the storylines of the last four seasons, and it was truly spectacular.

The last two weeks,
my sweet Candy has been off work really ill with a stomach bug and the flu.
But I have been looking after her and taking good care of her,
I’m a good doctor!
She has in fact gone back to work today,
so I hope she takes it easy at the gym and does not over do it.

Talking about doctors…
the new series of Doctor Who starts next Saturday
starring Chris Eccleston and Billie Piper.
I’m not too sure on the actor who plays the new Doctor
as he does not fit the role that well, good actor, but as him being the Doctor?
I don’t really know, we will see next week,
where I might give a review of the first episode.

Got in contact with Melanie last week after a short break from not speaking with her,
she is doing well for herself.
Hopefully we can meet up soon as she does not live that far from me now.

I still have no luck yet on the job front here in Easingwold or York.
I really don’t mind being a house husband,
but I would like to go out to work and earn a living instead of relying on Candy all the time,
it’s not fair for her.
Plus we need a second wage to come in to help pay for the wedding and our honeymoon.
I don’t want to work as a florist again;
I know that for sure, maybe at Travelling man?
The local comicbook shop? Hopefully.
If I could I would rather have a job working with Candy side by side,
as I know she would like that as well.

Will post more during the week.

Ex-Ghosthunter

As many of you might know or might not know,
I was a member of a group of Ghost Hunters called
(very original) GhostHunters UK.
We were a small team of (so-called) friends
who investigated reported hauntings around the country,
Sarah (Supposed trainee medium) was our group leader,
Martin (her husband) was the tech expert,
Alison (Sarah’s mum) was the medium,
Simon and James (Sarah’s lapdog’s) were the tech support,
and Jess and I were the Investigation support.

Nearly every “hunt” we went on there was always trouble from Sarah,
ranting and raving at Martin or one of us in the group (it was manly Martin)
that really put a downer on the enjoyment of the investigations,
but to be fair Sarah is still very young in age and in mind,
and she wants to have things her way or she will throw a temper tantrum,
even Alison had to tell her off once on an investigation.
Bloody unprofessional if you ask me.

Anyway my rant is not due to Sarah being a very silly stupid spoilt brat,
but to the recent comment she left on my last blog entry regarding my choice of Best man for MY wedding.

I did ask Martin to be my best man,
for about five minutes I thought it was a very good idea,
until the bitchiness and deceitful words that started
coming from Sarah’s trashy mouth.
Before my so-called best friend would ever meet my bride to be,
she started going on that it was doomed to fail, she was not right for me,
she was going to use me,
take my money (Ha! Anyone who knows me, knows that I’m always skint),
and use me to get pregnant and have lots of babies and go on the social.
I mean come on; this is fricking Easingwold here,
not Milton Keynes where most of the women (use that term very loosely)
there will drop their knickers for a shiny pound coin!
She even had the cheek to say that it was the “spirits”
who were telling her this information.
Sprits my arse!

So my decision for Martin to be my best man was the wrong choice,
he even was not that bothered about organising a get together
to sort out any plans for my wedding.

I did voice my feelings and worries to Candy about this,
as at the time stupid bloke here did not
want to lose his best friend status with Sarah and Martin.
So my beloved wrote a nice long letter to Martin and Sarah,
explaining what she wants in our relationship
and to put the fears away from my so-called two best friends.
What a mistake that was.

The letter was written perfect, it was styled in a very good way,
and I was very proud of Candy for doing that for me.
I produced the letter to Sarah at our group Christmas dinner,
and she just sneered at it and said it was a pile of shit
and what a load of sickly bullshit it was.

How dare she say this about my Candy, the lady I’m going to marry.
For someone who claimed to be my best friend
and not give my girlfriend a chance before they had even met up was just wrong.
So I made my mind up there and then not to have them at my wedding.

So I went back to my original choice for my best man
who I should have asked in the first place and that is Andy.
Andy has been a good mate to me over the last two years and he is such a laugh,
he will make the “best” best man I could ever have.

Then came my leaving party, which was interesting and a good laugh.

Martin and Sarah turned up which I was surprised about,
and they totally ignored Candy for the whole evening,
not even wishing us a good luck,
or congrats on your future wedding happiness.
I even asked Sarah to talk to Candy,
to get to know her, but she was not interested.

So I gave up, content in knowing that soon
I won’t be involved in their group activities for long.
And as for that,
she told me that I would always still be part of the ghost hunting group
and can still go out on an occasional investigation if I can make it.

But what happens?
within a space of less then two weeks from me moving to Easingwold
I was taken off the team members message board, and the team page.
No longer would I be part of Ghost Hunters UK.

And you know what?
I’m bloody glad that it has happened as my friendships
with this group of back stabbing serpents would have come to an end.

I could write more about this group,
but I wont give them the free press and advertising.

I do expect a comment or two from said group,
but do I care?

ALL GOOD THINGS...

I had the best christmas ever so far, spent the christmas and new year holidays with Candy in Easingwold.
Had lots to eat and drink and the town itself is really wonderful.
I’m going to enjoy living here.

I have already been made to feel welcome by the locals and Candy’s friends.
They all love me, but who doesn’t?

Heh … I’m going to spend the rest of my life with this lady, this sweet lady who has fallen in love with me, and who I have fallen so madly in love with her.
I have never felt so at ease with someone before, she truly is my soul mate.

I pretty much made my mind up before I left Candy to go back to Milton Keynes, that I am going to get my stuff packed up as quickly as possible
And move up to Easingwold to be with her.
I was going to do this within a certain time period, but we could not bare to be apart for such along time, so I’m moving as soon as I can.

Last week I started saying goodbye to all my friends, but I did miss out on a few as they never got back in touch with me.
I will admit now and Candy saw it, I was upset when I said goodbye to my friends, I have lived in Milton Keynes my whole life and known these people for a long time, so it’s gonna be weird starting over from scratch in a new place with new people, but I know I can do it.
Every choice I have ever made regarding Candy has been the right one, and I have no regrets.

Candy came down to help me pack and to meet my friends, nearly all my mates loved her except one or two who never really spoke to her at my leaving party.
But oh well, shit happens.

Two of my best friends (Andy and Carl) love her to bits, it was hard to drag them off her so I could spend some time with her on my night out.
My other two best friends (Debbie and Rebecca) love her as well.
Even the guys at the Emporium love her, she is just the coolest lady I have ever known.
My sweet fluffly uber-geek!

I’ve packed up nearly everything now and put loads of stuff in storage, which I will be picking up in a few weeks time, said goodbye to my neighbours, sold off lots of my furniture at cheap prices and caught the bus back home to Easingwold.

Now on my agenda is to find work, get the rest of my gear up here, sort out the house and start enjoying the rest of my life with Candy.

We have even set a date for our wedding!
23rd August 2005.

I have even got myself a bestman as well, Andy has agreed to the honour of being there for me on the day.
I am going to make Candy the happest bride ever!

It’s nearly CHRISTMAS TIME!!!!

I’m sitting here in front of my computer thinking about what to write. Thinking about the many decisions that I have made over the last few months, and what my future holds.
Just over a month ago I had no future planned, no job, no prospects and no life.
Then the only woman that I have ever loved came back into my life again, and nothing has been the same since.
Candy has totally changed my life for the better, my whole outlook on the world has flipped on its back, and now I’m looking at things with new eyes and new ideals.
In a few weeks time I will be saying goodbye to Milton Keynes for good, saying goodbye to my friends, and saying goodbye to my flat.
And then saying hello to my new life in Easingwold with Candy, I admit it will take a lot of getting used to, living in the countryside, fresh air, no crime, waking up every morning with Candy beside me.
But I have no regrets, as I know this is the right path for me.
After 29 years, I can finally see a future for myself; a future with Candy, and that future is very bright.

Last Saturday night was the Ghost Hunters UK Christmas party, and it was a very good night.
Had a lot to drink and eat, the food was excellent and so was the company.
We now have an official GHUK mini bus to use on our investigations.
At last our very own mystery machine to track down spooks; ghouls and things that go bump in the night!

Yesterday was such a good day, spent the whole day with Debbie, shopping and having a laugh.
Got my Christmas prezzie from her, a box full of Xmas goodies for Candy and I to share.
James came over last night to take me out to Chillies for dinner.
I got to admit, I will miss our weekly curry nights.

Well tomorrow I’m off to see Candy and spend the whole holiday period with her.
We are going to cook a traditional Christmas dinner with all the trimmings, Christ I can’t wait for that.
I’ve not had a proper Christmas meal in years, and to wake up next to Candy on Christmas morning will be the best present I could ever wish for.

To all my friends I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a very Merry New Year!

The Future is Bright

Where to start eh?

It seems like a lifetime ago when Candy contacted me, eons ago when we talked on the phone and an eternity since we made our plans to meet up together.
And after only three days of being together, I know with my whole being that I never want to be apart from her ever again, both of us have waited for the karmic forces of the infinite universe to allow us to be together, and now, very soon we will be together for the rest of our lives.
I’m planning on moving up to York within the next 8 weeks, I’m already looking for work up there, and I have somewhere to stay for the moment.
Plus I have asked Candy to marry me and she has said yes! so officially we are engaged.
I think it’s about time that we thought about ourselves for a change instead of others, our happiness and future, future eh?
For once I have a future, a real future full of happiness with the woman of my dreams.
Candy is honestly quite perfect for me, she’s an expect on sci-fi, comic books, weapons, fighting. She has a wicked laugh that makes me smile, she is very sexy, she has a smile that always melts my heart, I love her bed socks which are cute, she has a very strong personality and a strong heart, she has beautiful green eyes that I can lose myself in, and she also has that vulnerable innocent look that brings out the guardian inside of me.
With all my heart, I really love her.
Candy has already met my best friend Debbie, and Debs loves her to bits.
Most of my close friends are happy for me and for us, including Candy’s friends.
I know for a fact that this will work out and we will be very happy together.
I admit it is a huge step for the both of us, but it also feels just right, that we have been waiting for this all our lives,
So no matter what people say, we will be together.

Went round Martin and Sarah’s house on Sunday night for a social night; it has been a very long time for the three of us to be together for a good night.
Drank quite a bit and had a good meal.
Told them both my good news, which I think they took quite well.

Monday I met up with Debbie and Andy for drinks, had a bloody good time, talked about what I’m doing and they totally back me up, told me that I should never let go of happiness or love.
In the evening I went over to Martin and Sarah’s house for the closed medium circle, I have missed out on the last two, so I needed to catch up.
Told Jess my news and she was really happy for me, as was everyone else. They were just a slight concerned about me as it has gone really fast, but I have been waiting for Candy all my life, and I am never going to lose her again.

Tuesday I just stayed at home, did a small bit of packing and chatted to Candy and Debbie on the phone.

A New Hope

This week has been the most weird, fantastic, and wonderful week ever!
I have fallen for Candy in a big way; I should really say we have fallen for each other in a big way cuz that’s what has happened.
And it really is crazy that both of us are feeling like this, but it feels so right.
I have never ever felt like this about anyone I have ever met, Christ almighty I’m in love!
And something like this does not happen to me, me of all people, I mean come on this is Jason we are talking about here.
Good things never happen to me, not like this.
But somehow the cosmic universe/fate/something has decided that I need a break at last and has given me my Candy back.
It really is meant to be between us, I am so intoxicated by her that it’s hard to sleep, eat or breathe.
Bloody hell this is so intense.
Words really can’t describe how I’m feeling right now.
…
Anywhoo

Apart from spending hours chatting to Candy, I’ve also been doing some more job hunting as well this week, really need a job as soon as possible now.

Spent most of the morning/afternoon on Wednesday with Debbie, walking around the shopping centre and having coffee.
We had a very good chat about things, and I gave her my advice on some problems she has got at the moment.
Debs is so my best friend, I told her about Candy, and she was really happy for me/us.

Got lots to do today, it’s Andy’s birthday today, so Debbie and I are meeting up with him at Hogshead to celebrate his birthday with him.
Then at 5pm I’ve got an interview at Milliets, which is a sports/leisure shop.
Hopefully I will be able to get this job, as I would still love to work in the City Centre.

I can’t believe how much things have changed for me over the last few years.

2003 was the year of my rebirth
2004 was the year of new hope
And now 2005 will be the year that I will take over, take charge of my life and finally get my life where I want it to be.
There’s no stopping me now.
The world will be mine!
Mwahahahaha! (Dr.Evil laugh)

I’ve been thinking a lot about my life recently, and what sacrifices I have had to make over the years.
And you know what?
It is about bloody time that I started thinking about myself for a change and my happiness and future.
I will never give up my friends,
And I will always be there for them.
But maybe a change of scenery will do me some good, get out of Milton Keynes before the place kills me.

FLUFFY!

Wow what a week I’ve had so far!
Spent the whole of last Friday and Saturday job hunting.
Suzy who works at the silver jewellery stall tried getting me a job at the German market but I was a day late, so I applied at the stall instead.
I’ve must have handed out my CV to over a dozen shops this past week, I am so desperate to get some work.
I so need to clear my rent arrears and other debts.
Really don’t want to end up homeless, not after all that I’ve been thru over the years.
One good thing happened to me on Saturday was that Candy texted me, Christ I’ve really missed her, and I must admit I am so falling for her. It feels weird in a good way.
Anywhoo…
Sunday I went over to see Dylan and the gang at the emporium, but I did not stay long as it really was pissing it down, and I did not have my jacket on.
Shamus was the only one there, as Dan had to go home cuz he was ill. I think he might have had a hangover…I so need to go out drinking with these guys.
Oh yeh…hahaha…it was a mini forbidden planet reunion when I first got there in the morning, Paul Rainey, Pete, and Blair were standing there reading comics, and it felt like old times. Paul was the very first manager of forbidden planet and I was the last. Man those were the days.
One thing I do regret about the weekend was that there was a ghost hunt in Devon, and I could not make it as I was job hunting, plus I did think I was going to get this job at the German market.
Oh well, ive only missed out on two investigations in the two years ive been a member, so its not that bad.
My sweetheart texted me again on Sunday, until she ran out of credit.. hahaha, I kinda guessed what happened, so I was all right about it. She really is a sweetheart…
Monday I went up to the shopping centre to meet Rebecca for coffee, as we had loads to catch up on, it’s been a while since we last saw each other.
She works at star bucks now, so ive applied there as well…hahaha
Anyway we had a good chat about stuff that’s happening in our lives and our plans for the future, etc.
Then we went over to the cinema to watch The Incredibles, which she treated me, as I had no cash.
Oh My Gawd! That was such an excellent film, the animation was top class and it was bloody funny.
I did have a closed circle meeting to go to in the evening, but I got called up to do some quick work at royal mail, kind of a training course – on hands experience.
So I could not turn it down.
Shame really as I was looking forward to the circle night, as I don’t know when the next time I will be able to make it.
Yesterday, has so far got to be the best day this week.
Why?
Because I got to chat with Candy for pretty much over 7 hours!! I feel sorry for her phone bill.
She has such a beautiful voice, and a very wicked sense of humour, which I love.
I have learnt a lot more about her in those hours of chatting then I have ever done with any other person that I have cared about.
It felt like I could tell her anything, open my soul to her and let down my shields, which is no mean feat from me, trusting someone like this, falling for someone this fast, but then I realized that I was falling for her last year, and ive never stopped caring about her or thinking about her.
It does frighten me for the fact that I do not want to spoil things with her.
I know she feels the same way about me, I just cant wait until January, so once ive got some money im going up to York to see her.
I know she will read this journal today, and I hope not to make her blush, but she is the most beautiful, sweetest, (Fluffy*) lady I’ve ever met.
* = Private joke!
Every day I am thinking about her, it was so hard to stop talking to her on the phone last night.
“Sighs”
Anywhoo

I’m meeting up with Debbie this morning for coffee and a chat. Hope she is all right.

I’m missing Candy already.

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Had a pretty good week so far, been doing alot of job hunting this week as I'm nearly running out of cash.
I find something soon I hope.

Got a letter off Candy at the weekend, finally after all this time she has been in touch, christ I really have missed her.

Met up with two of my best friends on Wednesday, Debbie and Andy.
I am so glad that Debs came out as I have not seen her since October.
She is doing alright, but she has a long way to go yet, I neeed to give her a Tarot reading soon.
Stayed in Hogshead from 10am until 5pm, got kinda pissed, well in fact I lost count of how many beers I had!.

I'm off to do some more job hunting today, so I will post more later.

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Hi and welcome to my brand new web journal, my previous website was called Eternal Fool (http://www.eternalfool.blogspot.com/)
I spent a good three years on that site and made many changes to the format, but I felt it was time to come to a close in march of this year as my life went through many changes and I needed a fresh start for myself and my website.
So in March I ended Eternal Fool with a very heart warming final entry.
Over the last few months I have been working part time on ideas for my new website that will express who I am now in 2004 and beyond, and I think I have finally cracked it.
So welcome to my world… hope you enjoy the ride.

Tuesday was the two year anniversary of my mum’s death, I was at home all day thinking about what I was going to write and thinking about past times which I normally do anyway, I am always thinking about the past, cant help it really. It’s in the Parkinson/Louis genetic make up to always dwell in the past.
Melanie and I really should try and get out of that circle!

It’s been a long road for me over the last two years, a lot of hardship and tears, but there has been a balance of happiness and laughter as well, which is what I needed.
Friendships have come and gone, a few friends have always stuck by me over the darker times, I think without that, I would have been lost to the dark side.
So a big thank you to all who have helped me, I don’t need to name any names, as you already know who you are.
Anyway, instead of staying at home tuesday night, getting drunk and playing with my dagger collection, I went over to Martin and Sarah’s house for a nice social night, which was good, took my mind of things anyway.

So what have I been up to since March then?
Ok, a quick update for you all –

I got myself a fulltime job at Moss Bros as a hire manager, I used to work for the company 10 years ago, and I hated it then, so why did I go back to again?
I thought things would change, but it did not.
The people there were alright and I did make a few close good friends but the job itself was shit, I was promised a lot of things by my manager but nothing came out of it.
Pay rises, support, and help from other managers was all promised, but nope, nadda, nothing. I really got stressed at the job, and I even got ill at one stage that I had to take two weeks off to recover, when I went back to work, I found that my job had been taken away from me, and I was reduced to a normal sales assistant but had the responsibility to run the office and deal with all the orders.
Did that for two more weeks until I quit the job. I had enough and I needed to get out, one good thing happened that week at Moss, Sophie and Tom left at the beginning of the week, and on the Saturday that I quit, so did Lloyd and Jamal.
Which was cool, a mini walkout that I was proud of.

During the time I was working at Moss, I got myself a girlfriend, her name was Donna, it was a real difficult relationship to start off with and it never got better.
She was going out with a friend of mine, but things never worked out between them, so she asked me out, and well, I could not say no to her.
I knew from the start that things would not work out between us as she had no interest in anything I do, or who I really was.
All she was into was getting drunk and spending my money.
But I hoped things would get better, I even ignored some of my friends who gave me their opinion about her.
I think I was after something she was not, so after two months of going out, I broke up with her, and she was not even that bothered by it.

After leaving Moss, I went back to Just Flowers as a florist, Debbie had left the company in April, so I still saw her on a regular basis, and we always spent my days off together doing lunch and chilling out.
She was the best boss I had ever worked for and a damn good best friend.
Currently she is planning on moving up north somewhere with her husband, which I really am going to miss her. She was the coolest!

I worked at the florist on a part time basis until Rebecca quit to go work for Starbucks, so I took over her job, and started working full time with Erin.
Things were alright at first between us, until the last couple of weeks of October as she was also planning on leaving the company as well.
One moment she was alright and really nice and then she suddenly turned into the bitch from hell, and started treating me like utter shit.
The only person that kept me sane in that job was Chaz (Charlie), a fantastic, funny and cool 15 yr old girl.
She only worked Saturdays, so I requested to work every Saturday, as Erin never liked her.
Chaz made me laugh, a lot, a total sweet girl, and a sweetheart.

After awhile I got so fed up with Erin, that I quit the only job I have ever loved to go work in an office as a temp.
Working at ACR transport was alright, but it was only a two week work contract, so at the moment I am out of work.
Later today and tomorrow I will be doing a lot of job hunting as I have rent to pay and debts to clear.

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